Opening Up My Heart To My Home
by Denise Dupont
Coming home to me.
This is the way I would like to be.
To walk in my home with love, integrity
Honour, respect for myself and respect for others.
Coming home to myself, means I take
Notice of me, my skin, my smell, my shape,
My hair, my sensuality and sexuality.
My dance and my love
My love for myself and my love for others
Coming home to myself is opening up my
Heart to the core of my existence
My essence, my beauty, my creativity
My soul and my roots.
Coming home is being able
to say to myself I LOVE YOU.
I Do Not Love You by Jeffery Lane
I do not love you because you are not good enough.
I do not love you because you do not deserve love.
My love is not something I will give you freely.
My love is something you must earn.
You want to know what you must do in order to be loved, and only I can tell you.
If I tell you what to do and you do it then you’ll expect me to love you.
So I won’t tell you what it is you must do, so you cannot do it.
I’ll imply that you should know what you must do then you’ll feel guilty for not knowing.
Because you can never know what you must do to be loved nothing you can ever do will make you feel that you deserve love.
If you ever do anything that makes you feel that you deserve to be loved, I’ll make it clear that nothing you can ever do will be good enough and so you will never expect love.
You’ll realise eventually that it is your fault you are not loved because you don’t deserve love.
Because you will never feel that you deserve love you will never make me feel guilty for not loving you.
You’ll be so unused to love you’ll find it hard to love yourself and the harder you find it to love yourself the harder love will be to find.
You’ll look for love, you’ll be hungry for love but you’ll find it hard to find love and accept love.